hi guys. are these the most common blog posts that can be found on the web: sorry i havent blogged. who is reading my blog?* (see footnote). and… if my blog fell flat in a forest would any one hear it… or, care? : )
its been raining pretty violently in SF. gray gray days and lots and lots of rain. it finally let up and i escaped my house to go to the local coffee shop. eating a day old muffin and drinking down a soy latte that a dr recommended i not have. can you imagine we are of the age that doctors are saying ‘maybe coffee is making you stressed… have you considered…’. i have considered and i dont drink it as much but i like the ritual and i like the warmth and if you cant meet people for coffee and gin and tonics and beers sometimes, well, that really takes a lot out of my life.
so i would rather be stressed a bit and also stressing my liver a bit than avoiding so many of the things i love in life.
speaking of which, i havent been loving much of life, which is another thing i love to do. the main culprits are im not working regularly, suddenly, and im not dating the person i was dating regularly. too many of my constants have been consistently disappearing. im new in a city and feeling that. i love being a couple with someone and now im not and im feeling that. shall i force myself to be single for the first time in a long time. hmm. lets see.
and ate a lot of good french food and had great wine. went to sonoma, monterey, carmel, pacific heights, and visited big sur. it was a successful visit of that part of the pacific coast highway.
i was supposed to go to san diego with a group of photographers and models this weekend, but i was not feeling like myself and was not in the mood to meet a bunch of new people and be in hotels rooms with them for days and all of that. so, im sure i will tour that part of CA some other time, soon enough.
over the past few days i bought a lot of warm clothes bc it is has turned cold here. even though im going home to the east coast in about a week, and can get some of this stuff from where i am keeping my belongings in storage, it kind of feels good to start over, with things even as small as scarfs. a new beginning with new scarfs :]
* bloggers dont really care if anyone reads, i think. it just feels good to sit down and force oneself to assess how they are feeling, and make a note of it.