some days you are reminded of life (s)

alex, while you are in disneyland with a large part of your extended family (which i would pay good money to see), im doing like the exact opposite thing with my family… waiting for my dad to get released from the hospital after surgery. it blows. i hate hospitals and feel like i am going to faint the entire time im in one. the fact that my father is mortal makes me really upset too. i wish i could petition this.

one thing about all the hospitals and stress– once i heard his surgery was over and successful, i had that feeling of being SO ALIVE wash over me. life is good and beautiful and short and sacred and we must cherish it and live live live it. if you arent in a hospital bed, you better be doing something great in the meantime, before you end up in one.

i read tom robbins ‘jitterbug perfume’ recently, which is about immortality. the main point was kind of if you love living, you are going to stay alive for a reallllllly long time. my dad loves living. i think he should have that option.

SO—> heading back to DC today. i am going to try to buy a corset or waspie soon, and, i dont think this will be possible in southern MD, so i may have to hang out in DC for awhile tonight looking for one. looking for festishy clothes amongst all the bureaucrats. ha.

this picture was taken in a hotel right before i left the city for good or sort of good.

im happy to be alive and if the lights right, im going to take pictures of my self in the bathroom mirror, gddammit ; )

“Our individuality is all, all, that we have. There are those who barter for security, those who repress it for what they believe is the betterment of the whole society, but blessed in the twinkle of the morning star is the one who nurtures it and rides it, in grace and love and wit, from peculiar station to peculiar station along life’s bittersweet route.”
— Tom Robbins (Jitterbug Perfume)

About suzyloves

i am flowers on the side of the road. 'yes' and 'joy' are important to me. i may not re-read what i write, and i never won a spelling bee, but i do hope you enjoy. the world is getting larger, and i fear our 'human-ness' is growing smaller. this is my attempt to connect. i do love you and i do miss you, so this is my hand reaching out so we can all be love <3
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