graduation, how times lapses and leaps. (hearts, suzy)

alex, i have been thinking of this, too. i was in line at the bar at a concert last week, and the KIDS (haha, how sad of me to say) behind me in line were bitching about how early they had to get up for their graduation ceremony. “i have been up since 8:30. ugh, what a day!” a part of me wanted to say congrats on finishing the whole ordeal, and the other part wanted to smirk and say something about how in the working world, 8:30 am is sort of sleeping in! but i just kept my mouth shut.

the other kid went to school for acting and said he cant appear in anything until late 2010 because ‘his plate is just very full until then.’ i turned around to look at him, and while cute and young, he didnt seem famous or celeb-cute. just standard young 20s boy cute.

its so striking, to me, what you said;;; that we are doing things we never would have expected to be doing with our lives, however, we sort of knew we had it in us all along. as you know i am doing all sorts of things that i can only one day write a tell all book about, but until then, its just for me and a close few to ponder how and why. (and where is always fun!) if you asked me on our cheerful graduation day 5 years ago if i could do these things, my initial reaction would likely be a thoughtless no, and then upon examination, a hesitant, or maybe jokey yes, i guess i could do that…
because its not that i doubted i could do and achieve and bear all these things, its just, how and why would i get there, to actually doing them.

[[[[ one night years ago at a party, someone said ‘people always say ‘i would never do that’, until suddenly you do it. and then its just another thing you have done.’ weird sex stuff, drugs, getting hooked on bad daytime tv, etc etc. i see it happen all the time. its not all the profound, but i think about that sentence from time to time in life. its stuck with me. ]]]

the big scary ek omg fun next question is, where will we be in FIVE years from now? i have a feeling someones going to marry a rock star and score that european beach villa, but, i mean, i cant count on it. though, im not saying ‘i would never do something like that!’ heehee.

<3<3<3 and this memorial day weekend was lots of family things and day drinking and traveling though new york new jersey delaware and pennsylvania. cars and people with babies and all these suburban things, that do not remind me of my life, or of living in brooklyn. it was fun good and great, but now i am home without a car, without a family of four or a lawn to mow, and, i am content. ❤

About suzyloves

i am flowers on the side of the road. 'yes' and 'joy' are important to me. i may not re-read what i write, and i never won a spelling bee, but i do hope you enjoy. the world is getting larger, and i fear our 'human-ness' is growing smaller. this is my attempt to connect. i do love you and i do miss you, so this is my hand reaching out so we can all be love <3
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