guess what im doing, cause i can?

im writing to US/you/them  from my porch. meaning, my laptop finally can hold battery and i can bring it outside with the wine and cigarette anddddd put on music (pink floyd) and type to you.  its darkish though and i cant see the keyboard that well.  im also wearing matts pants… SUZY: MATTS PANTS… only you know what that means ( so many gay lovers – i wish- would think that meant something sentimental like i have some favorite dead lover poets pants on… but no.. they are your ex BFs pants that he didnt want with the bike tear and all…”do you want these levis? they’re matts…..  ”    yet i wear them still… 5 years later… with my hipster tear …  OH!                               so.  im happy to be out in the cold air, with what kinda is you.. but really just a blank screen – you will soon read. maybe, even!.                                                                           so you know, it is january and you know what?….  the FERNS in my yard.. yes FERNS…  are overgrown..  as i pee late at night in the yard & i notice that the ferns are very fluffy and maybe killing the other vegetation around                                            OKAY….  ok,,, k.. i was just too cold outside(even in la, in jan, its like FORTY at night:BRRRRRR)   and so now im inside.  244am (whatever) and its friday and i m up…. “home, home again—– i like to be when i can…”      oh P FLOYD.  so, the wall on the big screen at midnight in hollywood tonight was not exactly great… but i was out of the house, with new people, not that drunk, and HAPPY… just the flick is only fun and stoned for about 40 mins. then, there is another 50 mins of oddity and sickness and screaming and blood that i closed my eyes and drank diet pepsi and tried to appreciate the little love/lotta love for pink floyd.  more than lovin thier music, i just have so s oooo sooo mmany amazing memories to all this music.  : mostly college (temple,philly) and boyfriends (old ones, good ones.. not new/crappy ones (does that make sense?))    love life anyway.  even if you hate/love/dislike/fellasleep at any movie, right.   love is all we need.. right? who said that? john something…lennon or something-i forget.    gnight!                   dark side of the moon is so much better anyway?!?!?!?!?….          LOVE any one/thing actually reading/makingsenseof this right now.         (real fast:  p floyd’s MONEY is playing quietly in my room and my loner cat is even near me on the bed right now….)                                     so, NOW… GOODNIGHT BLOGPEOPLE.   🙂