so alex / ive owed you this

/explation for a year or so now!

i moved to ct, where i really had no interest in moving, for a good job. and now i moved here, which i had a great interest in moving to, but not a big love for the job i took. why would a person like me, who wants to love each choice she makes, be making these sub-par choices?

BECAUSE I REALLY AND TRULY WANT TO CHANGE THE WORLD FOR THE BETTER.
and slowly but surely through these choices i think i am getting there.

after this very 9-5, uber-office job, i will have enough credentials to freelance, have a flexible schedule, work for a major NGO that is making a big differance, and still run off to barcelona or LA whenever it strikes me.

i am paying small dues.
and im living in one of the greatest cities that has ever existed.
so, all in all, its not that bad.
i can still hear awesome jazz music at the union square subway stop on my way home from work, and go to really good parties all weekend long if i want to.
and in a way, the weekends are so much more beautiful and taste and look and smell and feel so much better to me bc of my stressful, constraining J-O-B i go to all week.
ive never had that ‘its friday, lets go to happy hour and stay drunk and have fun every second until monday’ type of feeling before.

i sort of am into it.
granted, i like drinking on tuesday afternoons, too, which cant often do right now., but the live it up on the weekend thing is kind of a nice release.

xoxoxoxoxo (london london london! im glad the emails are circulating!)
(and lucies in india! holy jeeze! im going to meet up w her in boston when she returns to see pictures and hear about how i HAVE to go there- SO THAT I GO THERE soon.)

About suzyloves

i am flowers on the side of the road. 'yes' and 'joy' are important to me. i may not re-read what i write, and i never won a spelling bee, but i do hope you enjoy. the world is getting larger, and i fear our 'human-ness' is growing smaller. this is my attempt to connect. i do love you and i do miss you, so this is my hand reaching out so we can all be love <3
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