sweetie pie alex pie

first of all- i never commented on how WONDEROUS san fran sounded. i love all the hippies there, too. i havent experinced them as you have, but when i did have my encounters w haight st, i couldnt believe it was even real. a beautiful slice of i cant believe this is life in some places! cake. a la mode.

(with vegan ice cream) (ha)

it was so good to see you. but with you, with most everyone i keep contact with, its just picking up pieces where we left off. i suppose that is what people do as they grow older, and develop into new-ish people .. they update each other. on the new. and i will always love what your new is. and you will love mine. (even if you dont fully understand what i do from 9-5, and why i agree to do it from 9-5, on mondaY ALL THE WAY through fri) (ha). so we will love each other , forever and eternally.

that quote it good. i agree with it quite a lot. love doesnt wake one up. love is hazy, comfortable, slipping into a sweater and a warm bath and drinking hot chocolate that has a bit of liquor in it…

lonely is lost in the rain in a new city(gawd, or country!) with a dead cell phone and an untied shoe.

lonely does make you feel alive, in many ways. but alive in ‘an awareness of how i would LIKE things to be if i got everything i WANTED.’ lonely is a wanting emotion, loving is a having emotion. and wanting feels stronger that having. but probably really isnt.

im drinking coffee for no good reason at 8 pm brooklyn time. (we’ve our own timezone here; its called ‘hipper than the rest of ny’. (ha) i ran today. the weather here is rivaling yours. 70!!! degrees yesterday. close but not that hot today. i ran ran ran in the park. i felt lighter than sunlight and awaker than i have in awhile. a new years res of mine is to stick to a running schedule. i notice myself becoming fat in the ways that come with older age, and slow and lethargic in the same ways. i dont want that. i want to keep a young virile vibrant mind body soul and life.

ryan adams is playing in this coffee shop, that i amtoo awake in to consider the bottom half of my coffee. “you were young and man you were sad- when your young you get sad- and you get high- young boy done you bad, then i went and did you wrong….. and i got high high high .. oh one day when you are looking back… ‘

hes great. i like him a lot.
i saw MAN MAN at the bowery on friday,. they were so good. the whole place was dancing. its rare to see that in ny. they are a philly band- i dont know why i dont know them, personally, but i dont. you should love them! if you dont yet, download some. they are tom waitsy and sort of primal screaming-y. like tribal in a way. they dont stop between songs so that they can build up the energy during the show.

my roomate is having a birthday tomorrow. lots of musicians with instruments are coming, im hoping. im making a carrot cake.

are you guested out in CA this month? dennis is writing a book, and it would be great if i stayed out of his hair. but… it would also be nice to escape east coast winter if it EVER does get cold here. tell me the 3 most ideal time to visit you from next weekend to march.

i love you. im never getting to sleep tonight, and i dont want to acknowledge that i actually have to go to work tomorrow. i just got into the weekend swing of things! i just bought bright teal blue eyeliner that i love, and i cant wear that in front of the doctors and PhD candidates, now can i?

i wish you were here alex. we could tell stories all night and go to some weird party or art show (polish socialist conceptialism of the 70s) and have funfunfun. forever ever and ever.

About suzyloves

i am flowers on the side of the road. 'yes' and 'joy' are important to me. i may not re-read what i write, and i never won a spelling bee, but i do hope you enjoy. the world is getting larger, and i fear our 'human-ness' is growing smaller. this is my attempt to connect. i do love you and i do miss you, so this is my hand reaching out so we can all be love <3
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