every day, suzy, I wake up. and feel different.
because the air and water and world around me keep morphing and I keep absorbing the effects.
i feel, lately, like EVERYTHING is happening at once.. and really, just a few things are changing and happening. everything is mostly not doing anything. does that bring sense?
i pulled from my bag of runes stones after this recent awakening and change in my life and life that was with christopher. i pulled DEGAZ, the stone of transformation and it helped me instantly calm myself and look forward to fate, to whats to come even though it doesnt all “feel good”
and i’ve been plugging through, you’ve heard my messages and my sadness and happyness and very much confusion.
after another day- yesterday, after a full week of this “new situation” we had a day of funk. all day, sad/arguing/uncomforatable. via a fucking phone, of course.
and this morning i awoke and saw the runes book. i thought maybe i could pull a stone. and i did. DEGAZ, again. transformation.
Breakthrough, awakening, awareness. Daylight clarity as opposed to nighttime uncertainty. A time to plan or embark upon an enterprise. The power of change directed by your own will, transformation. Hope/happiness, the ideal. Security and certainty. Growth and release. Balance point, the place where opposites meet. Dagaz Merkstave
if you dont know more about runes, check them out on wikipedia.
so anyway, i am embracing and accepting as best i can. minute by minute, day by day.