So- this stems from everything we talked about in our phone convo alex- I was thinking that everything in one’s life, like besides the structure of who you are, what you believe, what you like, whether you like warm weather or the taste of fake grape, ok, besides all that type of ongoing stuff, I wonder if ‘HOW WE ARE DOING’ is all dependent on are we in love? Are we fighting, ongoingly, and not so much in love anymore? Are we completed by one other person that makes everything more beautiful?
And in some ways, our jobs and our locations and our major external goings ons certainly affect us, but they can all be lessened if we are in love, you know? That dichotomy seemed especially apparent to me, unfortunately, bc you are going through difficult love time and I am finally going through good ones again. But I knew, while we were talking about the ins and outs of all this, relationships things, that I could easily be in your postion in a year (‘I think I’m purposely destructing this.’) and you could just as very logically be in my current position (“Everything is great and we see each other as much as possible, while still holding on to a semblance of our separate, independent lives.”)
People might as well say, instead of ‘How are you?’ ‘What’s up?’ ‘What going on?’ just, to the point, ‘Are you in love today?’.
I would love to write much longer and clearer about this but bosses over my shoulder and thigns like that!!!!!!!!!!!!! And piles of work to get through. And, I know, if I don’t post now in a partially what I want it to be way, that it will never get posted. So here you go!