i love the mamas and the papas too!

though, they do sort of make me wish i lived in CA…. like a lot of things do, i guess.

we hold a series of book talks at work, and yesterday, at the Yale Club [fancy fancy] Sarah Murray came to talk about her book  http://www.moveablefeasts.org   

which was really really interesting. and someone asked, in the Q and A, why produce always tastes so much better when you are in California

the book is interesting, it is about the ‘local’ food debate. check it out!

dustin is good good and fine fine. we have fun fun.

i am good good fine fine. and though every isnt all fun, i try to figure out, unceasingly, how to get there !

yeah.

everyother day of the week is fineeee, oh yea!

i love the mama’s and papa’s.

please check this out everyone: http://www.chrisjordan.com/current_set2.php?id

here is a fucked up story i feel like telling: years back  jonathan and i both worked at feewee’s in philadelphia. (were u ever there, suzy? sure you were but wait, we didn’t know each other quite?)  i remember a time we were both working or both there or something and it was hot hot philly summer and we flew through ice and ice blended drinks we made with a regular blender totally node “code” for commercial use, etc.  anyway, jon poked me, “hey look at this”.  he had just rinsed the blender and one of the 4 blades was not there.  only 3.  the other blade?  one will never know.

its monday morning in the office. good old morning in the office!
i’m hooked on 2/3 cup of coffee every morning that i drink in the car thinking of you and your mugs of tea.

today is the first day back on set in nearly 4 months.  4 months of a writers strike that flew by like nothing even happened.  but we are back at it and today are the preshoots.  that means we shoot a handful of scenes without an audience so that tomorrow the “show” for an audience goes a little faster and/or we shoot the scenes most complicated to shoot and/or the scenes that happen on sets that maybe the audience wouldn’t have a clear view of anyway.  its fun and takes only a few hours in which i stand around on set and eat a lot of food and have a lot of laughs.  doesn’t it sound so interesting?!  if i were you, in ny, suzy, i would so be trying to get a job at snl or 30 rock or some fun ny based tv!  did you know that 30 rock shoots up in queens on soundstages where the replicated the offices of snl that are at rockefeller.   isn’t all that just interesting information?  what else can i tell you about the industry that probably you find useless information!  ha!

today we are ordering lunch from hugo’s…  a wonderfully healthy spot in hollywood.  i sometimes forget how blessed i am to be in such a healthy environment.  i bet even ny lacks the plethora of super green menu’s.  or more that ny is also littered with unhealthy choices, moreso than los angeles.

what else can i say? i love you.  you need to come here. or meet me in mexico.

hows dustin? i haven’t asked or heard!

its alexander-again-fuck,shit,what

i had just written quite a bit-don’t remember what, but

my computer/safari did one of “those things” and somehow… since i was multi tasking this blog, myspace, and  email, etc…. and it did that thing and it ALL SHUT DOWN. and i realized i lost it ALL.

 

so, do i try to rewrite? nah. its meant to be, eh?  so im here now saying”sorry” i cant tell you what i just did 20 minutes ago.

 

http://youtube.com/watch?v=ra35LqN5AAY

 

my favorite song today is that above. in cars.

 

thats all, then.  can’t really maintain the energy i had ours ago when i wrote what feels like pages (this is the internet so there isnt actually anything that is really “pages”.)

 

I LOVE AND WE LOVE AND I LOVE YOU ALL and my body actually says “i love” on it and barely anyone knows about that! 

also: check out emily’s art

http://www.emilyerb.com

was it anderson?

that classroom, was it in annenberg? i sort of feel like no, it wasnt. maybe gladfelter? ugh, did we really have a building on our campus called g.f?

ha

i think about that concept a lot- msypace, facebook, im. even email. does it keep us in touch with more people we should be in touch with? or does it just keep us  in touch with everyone? like, EVERYONE, we ever knew, until the end of time? will graduating kindergarden classes make a facebook page for themselves and will yearbooks have lists of everyone’s email addresses printing on the last page? best friends forever! like, really: forver?

school shootings: sad. duh. of course sad. also: a photographer i worked for who grew up in nyc had an interesting point about them— they dont happen in places like LA, NYC, london… big diverse places where every freak and geek is free to be who there are, in all their geeky glory. they happen in these little surpressed small towns where if you are the slightest bit different, you are going to feel so MAGNIFIEDly different each and every day and class and hour and changing in the gym locker room… etc.

something to think. on.

and- Kosovo just declared independence. crazy demonstrations in nyc.

and- photoshoot this morning, in a white cape and new short hair (do you like it!?) and BIG black heels.

and- lets plan a trip together please. where do you want to go?

and- i love you so dearly. enjoy this day of this life.

i love friday, part one. was that today or a week ago, i have no sense.

my friday, part: the end

a few things.

suzy, i was thinking of you.  i am always thinking of you, recently it is because i have been back on daily coffee. (i have such an up and down addictive personality but lately i have this great brand of good beans and i grind them in the morn and make a single cup with a slow drip system.  no electricity.) ANYWAY, with that i am also back to rushing to work in a whirlwind every morning.  or maybe just mornings are whirlwinds.  i walk out of the house with my 2/3 mug of coffee and then when im shuffling through the damp parking lot and into my empty offices in the morning,  i think of you.  i think of you shuffling into the mostly crowded classroom and sitting up front by me, where no one apparently wanted to sit.  the old man was already talking about nonsense by the time my eye caught you scooting in and settling into your desk, green tea splashing around from the mug in your arm. 

 

then i was thinking about how nice it is i have a reason to think about you, as well as all the friends i think about throughout…  and i was pondering the significance of all these various telecommunications:  gmail, IM, myspace, texting.      all the technologically interested office workers high speed users are able to stay constantly in view.  though we might only quickly blab on gmailchat, i still spend nearly all my waking days somewhere near a computer with flashing green text: suzanne lanza.   some friends and i banter back and forth all day.  some of us video chat.  others, barely say a word.  but still.  all day it is al of you on my gmail list, my im list, my top friends poop list.  

 

maybe it keeps you in my dreams.  maybe it keeps so many more friends on my mind, without me evening knowing it.   i love this in some way!   

 

 

 

trivia: what was the NAME of the building that we had that advertising class, suzy?   

 

another shooting in a school setting.  i understand mainly that america lacks mental health care big time and also makes attaining guns wonderfully easy.  what i don’t get is the school thing.  what high schools and tech schools and grade schools and universities.   why not wal-marts and used car lots?  and i don’t intend that’s any better. 

 

i was ALSO thinking this one day:  i want to create a bumper sticker/tshirt/poster that has a picture of a hummer (the car) and the text reads: uh, your car has the same name as a blow job.  did you know that?  you’re driving a blow job.  uh,  that’s gross.  

 

does it sound alright?  wouldn’t that somehow make fat homophobic gas suckers uncomforatable somehow.

(also, how did hummer become lingo with blow job anyway?)

 

 

does it sound like i am all over the place?  well, i feel that way mostly today.   i feel all day and night lately this strange impression of speed, as if everything around me is just moving a little quicker that i would like it and i can deal but whenever i try to grab onto something and hold it for a second i am just a moment late.  its like the hit-the-head-of-a-gopher game at the fair.   know what i mean?    it’s all well, i just laugh at the end of the day because i realize how many times within a day i can’t help to make a loud sigh.  a big breath and exhale and blink my eyes and  feel so much better.

 

suzy, will i see you in one of the next few months.  maybe in la.  but always maybe in ny, i have, as always, a potential ‘time-off’ again coming and when that (maybe) happens then i always look for a trip.   yet, i need to see some mexico.  need to, some real mexico.  

 

see you in my iDreams 

 

 

 

 

 

 

fri, part one

in dustins art studio, and the band practicing upstairs will not stop playing that one song something about a girl by jet -oh its called ‘are you gonna be my girl’- i actually thought i liked that a bit UNTIL now- and then ’sweet dreams are made of these’- and not even the mary manson vers.

ugh.

well, but, it is my friday part one, bc it is wed., and i still only work mon-wed, 9-5. then, a bunch of other stuff sprinkled in throughout the rest of the week. friday night, part one. but im not being fri night joyful. im just being a little cold and i think i will finish the alice walker book of essays i am reading.

also: i just applied for a job addressing 400 envelopes in cursive handwriting. haha. fun life.

bytheway, someone got a haircut!

sorry to hear that alex!

but this should make you feel a lil better:

it is snowy rainy sleetly cold cold cold in ny today! dripping gross and yucky is about to set in.

can’t walk half  a block without getting sprayed by a bus driving by, stepping in a puddle, and having someone walk into you with their umbrella.

and youve got all the sunshine know to man!

love love you, read some alice walker poems- they always make me feel better. <3

sorry everyone, but-

fuck fuck fuckshit fuck fuck shit dick fuck. what the fuck?fuck that and fuck this, shit.(i had a bad day.) 

another!

loveeee this

ny

http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2066/2217250185_5c4511e8c2.jpg?v=0

wow- funny. and more interesting bits:

http://www.gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooogle.com/

interesting bits:

-gallop polling exists on the premise that 1500 people, if diversely represented, can accurately portray america (3 million people).   hmmmmm

 

-there is a strain of swedish gangs that are hiding dwarves in luggage on european bus rides who steal passangers belongs in carriage and return to their sac before arrival!

 

-blair may head the eu?

 

-there are recent showings of super high mercury in blue fin tuna sushi.  damn it.  but should we even care?

 

-cell phone use before bed can cause insomnia

 

- don’t give gift cards:  $8 billion of the $97B bought in gift cards (visa, amex, etc) goes unused and profited to the companies, all in leftover unspent “change”.  where can u use a credit card for $1.07?   

 

-mountain lions are currently the number one human predator in north america

 

-the average commuter will sped 40 hours a year in traffic.  is that all that much?

 

-LAX has one of the most efficient and quick airport security set ups

 

-the best: did you now unclaimed baggage lost on airlines is eventually sold to a private company in alabama who sells contents to the public at profit to the airlines.  ! 

!

suzy and friends and world!

HELLO!

 

its a lovely thursday morning in los angeles.  oddly, this time of year it stays colder in the house than outside in the sun.  an odd paradox about winter in la.  ”winter”.       though, long about noon, i am in bed with coffee.  (you don’t have peete’s coffee in the east, its a west coast chain that is BRILLIANT!  the coffee is amazing and did i ever tell you i only drink coffee if i make it because i make it by the cup with one-cup-at-a-time filter system and hot water.. THE BEST) 

 

hm. anyway.  that was borderline boring.  even my cat jumped off the bed and left.

 

hoping not to jinx this all, but the writers strike is winding down and there are talks that we could be back to work in just days, which would be shocking and wonderful!  i hate to say that I MISS MY DESK IN MY OFFICE ON THE WARNER BROS LOT….  

 

all i have accomplished with all this free time had been a lot of cooking, a good amount of reading, a very deep sense of peace with my life (yes, that happened), and catching up on movies and tv.  (are you watching “its always sunny in philadelphia”, its FAB)

 

i miss you suzy.  !  we never get on the phone.  why?   so, all i know is if i do work, it’ll be until early summer.. hen guess what…  i waste my life by coming back to ny for a bit!

 

 

maslow; if he lived in nyc i would totally drink lots of coffee and visit bars with him.

“Maslow lists 10 points that educators and teachers ought to consider in order to change their style so as to move toward the self-actualization of the individual. A summary of these points can be found below:1. Be true to yourself. 2. Do not be bound by your culture. 3. Discover your calling. 4. Life is precious. 5. Do not judge people. 6. See to the satisfaction of basic needs. 7. Take time to smell the roses. 8. Learn self-control. 9. Don’t sweat the little things. 10. Make the right decisions.These can and should be applied to all aspects of life, from your private time, through education and even in the work environment in order to work toward improving yourself and society.”

i, well, i like it.