alex, in reposnse to your words..

.. i totally feel you on that.

i go through old journals and find entires where i wrote “only think on sundays- for a few hours- bc thinking gets you nowhere

thinking, planning, anticapating, remembering.

worrying!

where does that get us?

do you recall that new age statistic i used to love- that we spend almost all of our thoughts either planning, remembering or judging? label the next round of thoughts that come up and see how easily they fit into those categories.

so why think at all. alex, lets both help each other TAKE IT EASY.

the world *really* can be gentle beautiful and fun. if we ever allow it to be. if we ever let down our guard.

everybody gets some sunshine

Venezuelan President Hugo Chavez has changed his country’s name, redesigned its flag and rejigged its coat of arms in his drive for a socialist state.Now the leftist reformer, highly popular for redistributing oil income, is seeking to move the country’s time zone to offer a more equitable distribution of sunlight.

He said the measure sought “a more fair distribution of the sunrise,” which would particularly help poor children who wake up before dawn to go to school.

……the world told me

… to take it easy.. from now on..  like, to take everything easy and never fret a thing.. .  the big attempt is to do it for as long as possible until i dream bad dreams again.

tonight i am ushering at a margaret cho show, i get to watch of course but technically i am  a volunteer for the organization running the show.   and that i will take easy.

somewhere in new york city, suzy is rushing from one place to another, doing so with a smile though i am sure.  somewhere she is stopping to look at an interesting sight of people, or looking up at a building swaying in the warm breeze.  somewhere else i sit and think of those things, and imagine the many hugs in bars and cafe’s all over that city.

where i am…

suzanne, i want to live in ny too
and LA.. and everywhere.

There was a show picked up for the fall with Parker Posey – but it is a sitcom and that is a totally specific working enviornment that I just love… and they are fading away as we speak and I am so lucky to be working on that format of a show (think: good pay, perks, hours, fun….  ) and Posey’s show is going to unusually film in NY at the Kaufmann-Austoria studios…
I might have to come work on that show while I live in your hood for a year.   oh to dream of these things.

So I have this grand book I am filling up.. basically I have been writing down the gist or headline of articles I come across…and i find it an amazing thing to have.. like a news bible (I tend to forget most of it all, otherwise).. now I can do more research or forward info on..

-The demand for cage free eggs is growing so quickly they can not be produced to the right standards fast enough.  meanwhile, there standard for cage free is not clear – as large egg operations are allowed huge barns of “free roaming” chickens…  picture this gross mess.

-In India, there is a newfound interest in making and drinking fine wine.  Before, this was not a grape producing and wine making country… however, the impact of globalization along with the high social elite people of the country who travel….
Made me think: I know US and some Europe has extreme poor and extreme wealth within its borders… but we often think of many counties as merely poor and some middle class… south America, middle east, ….. yet India is known for such awful poverty living along side of extreme high life wealth.    true?

-The Chinese gov is implementing a tracking system that involves 20,000 surveillance cameras in major cities.  Most of this technology is to “stop crime” but obviously will infringe on many rights of the people.  Also mentionable that many of the technologies being used for this mass surveillance systems are ours… coming from folks at IBM, HP, Dell…..   man, America really does want to RULE THE FUCKING WORLD.

-It was released now that much of the information on Wikipedia has been altered by company PR firms – Exxon mobile dumbed down the facts about thies big spills, Pepsi changed facts about water quality …..

Did I tell you that I am trying to green my office…?  I got “company money” to shop at the good will (and some target) to get plates and bowls and cups and silverware… so that an office of merely 20 people can easily stop the waste of paper and plastic products that we go through by the bag full every day.  So fucking insane that people have a hard time simply eating with silverware and washing it.    And yet there are some not interested.   IN CALIFORNIA???

The new try’s for are show to be green are good (though some of it is a mere publicity stunt on the part of the studio)… however, anyone in film/tv production can tell you that water bottled litter sets like no other object… with a crew of over a hundred and a busy commotion in which no one can keep track of those open bottles that only have a few sips taken….  guess where all this water and plastic goes and the end of the day… ??  The show is not allowing water bottles on the set this year…. instead the entire crew will get personalized aluminum bottles.   Isn’t this great… well we’ll see how it goes over, anyway.

My email on GREEN GREEN SIMPLE GREEN…. I will email it to you today.. can you make any additions…  I’ll explain more in email.  If your crazy busy, its okay.. cause I know you will help me later when I brainstorm how to realllllllly distro this.  First of all, I’m going to have thousands of copies made and send handfuls to people in the mail… all over the country.. saying :just leave these in the store or docs office or anywhere…

happy day.

morning S

morning to you.. though the timezone really prevents that from being true.  GOOD DAY.

good you, good everything.

its late morning in burbank, ca and i sit very still and happy right now.  i was able to attend the private yoga classes that take place at work.. just a few of us and its just wonderful and a very different thing for me to start my day with a class.  i see the love of it…   if my studio offered those 6 am classes, i might be interested… i wonder if i could also lay the paper down for ready pleasure in downward dog?

i slept awfully.. why?  i don’t know.  only a couple of drinks and it was very hot though.  could i have ruined my night be have a late night snack that consisted of frozen taco things with immense amount of salsa and then more chips and salsa and then huge cookies (vegan) then some trader joes chocolate something., also somewhere in there i ate an entire beet as i leaned over the sink.. the chocolate bar i was literally eating as i go in bed and turned lights out.   PERHAPS thats why my body said WTFuck most of the darkness.

im very excited  for lunch today.  food is the biggest of topics in my office environment.   sad thats sometimes the only thing o really focus on.  talk about living in the now!

i have on my desk a black and white photo from philadelphia in winter of 2002 (?) for the first of many war protests we all went to.  in it heidi and jon are both bundled up like in that very “temple campus=war ridden russia”-look…  and we are on spring garden… heidi holds a large sign “we are all one” with he rpainted earth and moon… jon, “all we need is love” …   and when i look at it i’m so happy, it was such a sad and interesting time.   meanwhile, the war has gone unchanged and its 2007 and this mess is pretty fucked.

my sign of course only said, “PEACE”

ah. the morning becomes eclectic.

i LOVE that decemberists song!

i didnt know it was heidis birthday. i never know when it is anyones – sorry all!

i dontlove these  http://www.organize-everything.com/garbagebags.html

(‘pretty’ trash bags)

iDOlove

and i do i do i do.   perhaps this is a habit thing  and all
i need to do is start writing everyday and i can manage to carry it on much more often.
When I was in philly, I worked at the “crooked frame” cafe.. and when i did this younger and prettier boy used to come in for coffee.
he happened to go to temple and we often were chatty..  i never made it out on a date with him and it was my fault for acting unavailable probably due to what at the time was a recent big break up.   that sweetheart once left a package there for me… it was a great collage of photos along with a mix cd titles “a mix for you”… i listen to that mix very often.. its full of great stuff like james taylor and things from the amalie sndtrk.

thing is… where IS THIS GUY?  just that i’m so often listening to his choice of music and yet he is forever gone… i even, in boredom attempted to myspace temple students that age.. but alas, there are 7000 and i don’t have that kind of patience.

i spoke with heidi yesterday..  it was her birthday and she sounded so lovely.  i will perhaps see her for a brief moment on my spurred trip to upsate ny in oct.

i will put weLove on a post-it on my computer at work and perhaps will have more to say with a reminder.
usually every night after whatever amount of wine i’ve had i wish i could dictate…  dragging a cigarette on my porch i wish that someone would take notes, then post for me.
OH NO AM IN LA TOO LONG?

so its the month of august… and i am on a total routine based and perfect young adult life.  work and grocery store and stop off at the dry cleaners.    my favorite new activity is to start my day long before work… so im going to bed earlier.. (still late) and getting up at 6am… (or later) and wondering my house then heading out with … NY TIMES!!..    so sad this great cafe by my house, the downbeat.. . has had a structure fire and so is indefinately closed…  SOOO.. i’ve been going to this great starbucks because they have good parking and outside seating and in the morning rush i don’t think anyone minds or notices that i don’t even go in and buy anything.. i usually bring a glass of juice and read outside for and hour… what a morning!

did i tell you about the peewee showing??  it was at the famous hollywood cemetery (YES!) and you sit off to the side of this big old tombstones (not on them whatsoever…) and they play projected movies… and picnics and wine are welcome!   what a blast.. peewee himself showed up to talk and he got the biggest drunk hipster standing ovation… like nothing i ever seen!

i’m eating edemame.  i’ve gone vegetarian past few months since really getting into michael pollan books.
(dictated, not read)
decemberists song of the day:

when we arrive
sons & daughters
we’ll make our homes on the water
we’ll build our walls aluminum
we’ll fill our lives with cinnamon now

these currents pull us ‘cross the border
steady your boats
arms to shoulder
’till tides are pulled
hold our grounds
making this cold harbor now home

take up your arm
sons and daughters
we will arise from the bunkers
by land, by sea, by dirrigible
we’ll leave our tracks untraceable now

when arrive
sons and daughters
we’ll make our lives on the water
we’ll build our walls aluminum
we’ll fill our mouths cinnamon

when we arrive
sons and daughters
we’ll make our homes on the water
we’ll build our walls aluminum
we’ll fill our mouths cinnamon
(when we arrive sons and daughters
we’ll make our homes underwater
when we build our walls of aluminum
we’ll fill our mouths with cinnamon)

here all the bombs fade away
here all the bombs fade away
here all the bombs fade away
here all the bombs fade away

hot hot heat

my: legs hurt. i dont know why. did i walk a million miles the other day but forget that i did? would not doubt it.

i am on a cleanse. was fine on the weekend. is annoying at work.

but i am glad i am doing it.

one more week in nyc, then beaches and beaches. i am needing some beaches. i know i live on an island, but i really havent been to one yet, in the true sense, like lying out, all year. how CAN that be? dont worry for me… i will be tanned soon.

summer loving

having a

blast