alex today is glorious for some reason i cant place
[QUICK NOTE to friends: i told a bunch of people to come to the blog to read the marriage post. guys, the post i was refering to is below. it is called 'Everyone,'. enjoy! its grand.]
ok- real post- the moon is fuller tonight than its going to be for a long time: Harvest Moon. climb up to a high place rooftop or even on top of a car, and take a peek. i think it is affecting the goings-ons of the universe! it illuminates possibilities to conquer and enjoy.
this is very hippie ish of me, but i had a great night last night , everyones energy was good, and positive fun happenings were all around.
i loved your london post. inspired by ms. heidi inspiration falzone? : ) i felt what you were writing; i used to go out a lot without my umbrella. fuck it, its rained too much. and i was always so aware when i was walking around in the rain. cold, drip, drop, be aware be awake, cold big drip, plop, be awake be alive. and on and on down high street kensington.
(also, any post that mentions homophobic stepfathers gets an A+++ in my book.)
quickly, sadly: im an idiot and cannot come to LA for halloween. why? bc im planning to move to nyc on November first. im such a dumb little girl sometimes!!!!!!! but maybe ill perform a big miracle and find a place and move in by midmonth. m ay b e m a y b e.
im planning on having a reflective birthday weekend. i was going to go home, but found out a craft fair that i love in nj is next sunday, so im going home next week instead. so so while im home and turning a new year wiser and more beautiful as a person, im sure ill be going through old notebooks and writings. and will post.
and will love.
Love is only ever the real answer and the fact that you have to think about it is the only thing that lets us go by. I feel every time I wake up to a morning of confusion where everything is as what it seems and the truth is shallow and the depth is in th eunderground where the dying are waiting to continue on. We are blesses to have the media roadcat our own human richness through the television and we get to hear all the wisdom of everything taken too far which is exactly what true wisdom is. We take it and gather it and let it go in our dreams and when we wake up its nothing but hte same. Dirty thoughts mixed with beautiful thoughts and what is the difference? Ive never been in such a place but I know its the same and I know that everytime I find a way to change it is always the same. What is the point of all this? It is to live at the fullest and dont feel regret. Everyone has it worse or better and for that it may be a fact that it could never be better or worse then it is right now. Ever. Life ends as soon as you let it and as soon as you let it flow into what it is it hurts and it kills and that my friends is what its all about. And ot love is the only answer and if I said you shouldnt love you wouldnt beleive me becuase your half way there.